Thursday, March 6, 2014

no blog

what do you do when you feel cornered?

CREATE, use all there is around you..., open your eyes..., feel it...




Friday, February 7, 2014

no blog

Veste tisto o tistemu, ki je naredil na tisti način in pol je ratalo tako?...
Kdo bi si mislil, da bom postala ena tistih, ki ji gre pod nohte nemir okolice, stres ljudi okoli mene, neučakanost, nepotrpežljivost, dviganje glasu in ostri pogledi.
Znašla sem se v situaciji, ko sem tehtala koga naj vprašam, ki ne bi skučil v zrak zaradi vprašanja?!
Spominja na obdobje, ko je moja mati prihajala iz službe vsa nataknjena in sem se raje umaknila za nekaj ur, ali preostali del dneva(beri tedna)..., s tem da se tukaj ne morem odmakniti.
Tresavica spodnje veke izdaja dejansko stisko, pojedene ustnice in nohti so se mi začeli lomit. Začudenja vredno je to, da imam ok pritisk in holesterol, pa še eno teh, na stres občutljivih zadev...
Ne vem če sem si kdaj tako močno želela iti..., kamorkoli, samo da je daleč, dlje kot lahko..., ogledovala sem si Kanado!!!
Verjetno so kriva leta, ampak še nikoli prej nisem tako skulirano odnesla pete. Doma potem, hja..., doma pridejo na meni ustnice...
Čim manj, bo moj moto, pustiti čim manj sebe tam, orodje za kar sledi, torej dele dni, ko ne bom tam.
video
čim manj, čim manj....

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

no blog

Uno ne..., what to do when nerves starts taking over?

You know, sweat hands, shaking body, the strange feeling in the chest not like butterflies, but fists punching...
I find it difficult to concentrate, can't finish spider game of four, can't think of anything else than that phone that doesn't ring..., the call that would set the life of two on the right tracks finally..., after almost a year!

Can't concentrate on this nether...


Andrej's pic of Trieste

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

ribnica

gone fast
steadily and calm, but fast enough...
too much time, too much thoughts and rush decisions...
Maxxoo's great looking, with some heavy loads on his back, comprehensively unhappy about the way his life took so..., in need of a change. I'm not the right change, I would be just an another load eventually...
Having lots of romantic thoughts, sweet and tender fantasies and saw everything there's to see from tv and cinema...
T-3,5 hopefully...
Then we'll see...

So far I changed my hairstyle ;) and played with my new Chinese lashes ;)

Saturday, August 10, 2013

ribnica

..in pol se obrneš okoli sebe, iščoč nekaj kar pritegne pogled, raje kot da sanjariš o nečem, kar si sanjaril leta in leta, vedno ista zgodba, ampak v različnih tonih.
Stvar fotografije...
Najdeš pač svoj star fotoaparat in najstarejši objektiv in iščeš nekaj kar izstopa..., pa tudi če je za to potrebno prepešačiti par deset kilometrov v hrib, v gostem gozdu, ki vodi nekam, kamor ne boš prispel, ker je prevroče in nimaš s sabo vode.







Monday, July 29, 2013

ribnica

niti simsi ne pomagajo več... :(

ribnica

pogledala sem vse serije, vse dele, vseh mest 'storage wars' !!
rešili so me simsi!
;)

Saturday, July 27, 2013

ribnica

...in pol je tko..., franšiza 'najboljšega soseda' ima neke kolekcije lakov za nohte, ki jih še nikjer nisem videla! Ok lak, na novo namazan, premazan s top-coat-om.
Navajam se...
No, nisem ravno zaprt tip osebe in je tako nasmeh in vesel 'dober dan' ponavadi dovolj za začetek klepeta.
Uh, Audi Q5!!
Trenuitno pa...;

Ribnica

  • Sončno
  • Temperatura:19 °C
  • Hitrost vetra:9 km/hSmer vetra: JZPovp.: 0-10 km/h
  • Možnost padavin:12 %
  • Oblačnost:11 %









;)


medtem pa;

Koper   /  Kamera

  • Sončno
  • Temperatura:25 °C
  • Hitrost vetra:23 km/hSmer vetra: JVPovp.: 0-10 km/h
  • Možnost padavin:11 %
  • Oblačnost:9 %




Friday, July 26, 2013

ribnica

In potem je tukaj dejstvo čevljev. Medtem ko v Kopru kraljujejo po najbolj trgovsko obarvani trgovski ulici kraljujejo prodajalne obutve, s tem je obutev na nogah povprečnih koprčanov(in jasno tistih ki v tem mestu delajo nine-to-five), videti nekoliko boljša..., novejša..., ali pa vsaj nekje bližje modnim trendom. Tukaj vidim fly-flot-ke, kakšne sandale na paske od ispred pet do devet let in tako dalje. Dekleta si še navlečejo kako fluorescentno 'strapless' zadevo, ki naj bi pokrila 'marelice', fantov pa..., nisem videla fantov!?..., verjetno igrajo PS doma ... ;)
Aja, med tem in tistim zadnjim barom je celo ena avtošola, pa dva fotografska studia, malo oblačil in ena obutev..., lahko da dve samo ima potem ena izjemno slabo promocijsko taktiko...
Ogromen plakat o prodaji in odkupu zlata kraljuje na enem od robov, ampak ni videti poslovalnice, brati pa se še nisem lotila.
Vse je videti staro, ne-negovano, umazana okna, še bolj umazana vrata v prodajalne, neraven asfaltiran pločnik, poštepana vozišča, ful tisto..., industrijsko komunistično obrobje velikega industrijskega komunistično obarvanega mesta.
Največja faca mi je bil moj 'Garmin'..., ko sva zavila z ravnice proti prvim stavbam tega mesteca je že govoril, da smo prispeli na cilj...! Zame je pa čudo tehnologije, da ga je sploh videl s tam daleč gor ;)
V vsem tem moram najti smisel, in ga bom, če odmislimo denar in še nekaj teh dolgočasnih sitnosti.
Nekje mora biti nekaj, poleg prekrasne vrbe žalujke v parku, kar bo vredno pisanja in moje stare dobre dvestotke.

ribnica

Koper..., mesto ki se narahlo vzpenja na griček, otoček, nekoč vsaj, nekaj tisoč ljudi, povprečna starost krepko čez srednja leta povprečne osebe..., trgovine, trgovinice, univerza, študenti, dijaki, življenje od ponedeljka do petka, od osmih do štirih popoldan. Mesto pločnikov, sprehajalnih površin, klopi ob obrežju, kolesarjev, poleti turistov, pozimi brez teh. Kot oseba, ki živi v okolici tega mesta, sem gledala nanj, kot na polovično dolgočasno mestece.
Če sedim na kavi v baru 33 pod stadionom, gledam v avte pred sabo, levo krožišče, desno nekoliko dlje, krožišče, vmes 'ogrlica' z nekaj trgovinami, malo dlje levo še eno krožišče, za tem sodišče in upravna stavba 'naftarja'. Zajebali so s parkiriščem, ki je zagotavljal vsaj tistih nekaj pogumnih obiskovalcev s predmestja, ko so postavili rampo! Ok, nič zato, ne delam več v mestu, ne zanima me mesto..., ne pišem o Kopru danes.
V glavnem, gledam avte, ki vozijo med krožišči. Vsak tretji je vreden manj kot dva jurja, vsak peti več kot dvajset, vsak petnajsti več kot petdeset. Sedela sem v baru na obrobju starega mestnega jedra, ki je itak zaprt za promet, mesta Salzburg. Avti so bili nekje v enakem cenovnem rangu...
Ljudje, ki hodijo mimo so..., od otrok do penzionistov, ampak ne tistih s palicami, čeprav je kakih 500m stran zdravstveni dom, oddaljen od starega mestnega jedra, kamor bi zahajali taki s 'tretjo nogo'.
Kava je dobra, sliši se radio, moški glasovi, ker je bar na zunanji strani samega nogometnega igrišča.
S Kopra pa v levo industrijska cona in zatem luka, desno nekoč ponos slovenske industrije, danes še nekaj..., pač..., Tomos in dlje v hrib socialistični bloki in malo manj socialistične vrstne hiše. Levo zavijemo v industrijsko cono predmestja, desno pa najbolj oddaljen, a najstarejši nakupovalni center(ček). Cesta za večji mejni prehod z nekoč 'našo' sestro, republiko hrvaško in to je vse kar je treba o tej poti vedeti. Po gričevju je posajenih nekaj malih vasic, kakšna večja in predvsem vinogradi in oljčna drevesa! Burja pozimi, maestral in 'tramontane' poleti. Sneg se pokaže vsakih nekaj let za pet minut, ljudje so sovražno nastrojeni proti vsem 'foreštom', ne prideš v krog niti v vsej polovici povprečne življenjske dobe! Alkohol, droga, delo, veselje, otroci, psi, kakšna krava, kakšen konj zadnjo dekado, kokoši, prašiči in traktorji. Hiše so začele nazaj dobivat podobo renoviranih starih istrskih hišk s kamnom in modrimi polkni, namesto idijotskih brezveznih, vsakdanjih trinadstropnih bedarij, s hišno ševilko... Avti so srednjega razreda in višjega razreda, avtov kartako praktično ni..., vsaj jaz jih ne vidim. Dan se začne zjutraj, noč ko zaide sonce, mit o odhajanju v posteljo s kokošmi je neresničen, klanje med kmeti zaradi pol centimetra zemlje pa zelo resničen. Je rekel, pusti gada, ubij 'Ištrijana'! Definitivno!!
Ok, še vedno je to uvod v prihajajoče...

Ribnica...
Cesta vodi skozi vse...khmkhm.., mesto...?...(?!), ena. dva ali tri semaforizirana križišča, eno nadstropne hiške okoli te, ene ceste, nekje tam dol na dnu, daleč stran, celih 6 in pol minut hoje, nekaj blokov, takih istih kot v koprski okolici. Mogoče je le malo več zelenja okoli, ampak to bi prej pripisala dejstvu, da vstanem v 15°C jutro in popoldan voham dež kar celo debelo uro, kar na naši obali dogaja če seštejemo tri, ali pa več mesecev padavin skupaj. Ok, dovolj o poletni (ne)vročini.
Trgovinice me spominjajo na tiste v Bujah, ali mogoče kakem drugem manjšem istrskem mestecu. Ena cerkev, dva zvonika, vrata trdno zaprta, dve tobačni trgovinici, franšiza 'najboljšega soseda', fast food, kebab, dve pekarnici, pet frizerjev, tri banke, knjižnica in še nekaj takih v eni stavbi širine dveh oken, in seveda, trgovina s kmetijskimi zadevami, notri nisem bila. Naštela sem najmanj pet na videz praznih nadstropij v teh hišah in vsaj tri atrije. Neverjetno, sredi mesta, prazne hiše. Vse to(tu in tam sem kaj pozabila omeniti) v štirih in pol minutah srednje počasne hoje!
Hm!
Ok, barov je en kup, kot frizerk, ne sanja mi se komu strežejo, koga strižejo...
Na vrhu je en, na dnu tudi en, sedela sem pa deset minut s kavo ob osmih zjutraj na sredo na terasi tega.
Vsak sedemnajsti avto v vrednosti desetih jurjev, vsak..., ne, ne znam tako reči..., po tretjem dnevu sem videla BMW-ja M3 in enega merdžota ML..., in to je nekje to. Trije traktorji in še kako kmetijsko vozilo, nekaj, kar nekaj, preveč za mest...khmkhnm...mesto, tovornjakov!
Ljudje...
Mame, očetje, dijaki, stari..., malo teh, malo ljudi, več avtov kot ljudi..., tu in tja kak bicikel..., ostalo moram še videti... ;)
Vmes pa..., kosilo, FB, čik, Viasat History, kava, jogurt..., dvestotka s 50mm 1.4f na 2.8f in 200 ISO

Več v naslednjih dneh.

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

move right

v bistvu je vse skupaj zakuhano po domače, ne?...NE TISTO...ameriško, z en kup maščob in sranja..., ampak s čim manj...vsega dobrega

pizda


Thursday, April 11, 2013

no words

getting tired of being bored

never bored

looks like fun sometimes


looks like shit

and although I believe, I cannot accept the fact that I'm above absolute zero!

Strings, tides, mellow, black clouds and dizzy sunshine

just words popping out of nowhere, 'couse that's where my mind is right now...

Nowhere

hopefully I did it right

I feel that runaway trip from years ago...seven, to be exact! Fairytale number!

Still believe in the magic of the trip to nowhere if the music's right!

Than you Tiesto

:)
this one's the best ever

enjoy

nowhere...



noone

Monday, January 14, 2013

make me

Look-up...dust and wind and decadence...

Look down...dirt and water and stinky carcasses...

Look left...anger and blood and tears...

Look right...it is a possibility

There's always an another option...to look inside!





Tuesday, June 19, 2012

no blog




 A letter to...


my substitute for love...
















It does everything you wish, makes you look amazing, young again, charming, it never say's I have no time, it never do anything wrong, it listens, and if you fail, it makes just a little tiny sound, to remind you to go back and correct your mistake...,whenever you need it, even deep into the night hours... it is never tired...
Sometimes it tells what you think, sometimes it makes you louder than your sown voice...

It's name is Photoshop...

And it has an another fantastic attribute..., sometimes works like a wonder pill that wipes out all your heavy thoughts...

Well, sometimes even it has no power over human nature. 















Saturday, June 16, 2012

no blog

I have a dream...
that one day, all of me will be into something important...
Sunshine's going to high school, done very well so far. I found money for a three day trip in Austria, and with friends I did in my life, with an X too... 
I'm not that bad after all...;) 
Well have a great time. Playing solo, saying out my thoughts, being honest, maybe a little too honest and direct. I feel as complete as never before.    No painful decisions, no renounces, nothing I really miss, I find myself closing up before friends and others. I don't tell much about me saying a lot. 


I feel good.


Saturday, April 28, 2012

no blog

Anyway...
there's nothing new round me, no new people, except some words with no face from twoo...the cat is growing, the dog's getting adult finally, sunshine's becoming a lady, job sucks, he's not available, the other's discovering himself, the kid's fucked up, the home's brighter and the summer's behind the corner, FINALLY...pretty 26°C today.
Learning Sony Vegas, out of some boring rainy day legacy...




I did my first time laps film, not as difficult as suspected...


and some pics...







Monday, April 2, 2012

no blog

Feeling lucky they said...well...
this days feeling kinda strange, like something's about to happen...have no idea what, but I had this kind of feeling before, and never happen anything important!?...
Got some free time last two days and had a meeting with myself, great...
made a house in sims3 and made a video of it...more, uploaded it to share the idea...I know is not near what some guys do, but they are mostly architects...and I'm just a nurse from the last corner of this world...
well

here it is...
download here

and the video...






















Thursday, March 1, 2012

no blog


help me i fall
help me over the wall
help me give me a hand
help me my sky's grey
help me we're all affraid
help me i feel all you feel
help me(or) i(ll) fall ??

help me i'm not a ghost
help me my life's ruff
help me i knew so much
help me i don't know why
help i don't wanna die
help me i feel all you feel
help me i fall

help me i...
help me i...
help me i...think i'm dying

help me i...
help me i...
help me i...think i'm falling

help me you heard it all
help me when i call
help me i see all you've seen
help me i fall

help me i...
help me i...
help me i...think i'm dying

help me i...
help me i...
help me i...think i'm falling
help me i...think i'm dying
...think i fall


Tuesday, February 28, 2012

no blog

guess was not...




some little makeover today, some teaching later this week maybe...some pics, some family, some sun...nice warm late winter weather...

Monday, January 9, 2012

no blog

this month will be a challenge...
:(

not for her...

Friday, December 30, 2011

no blog

My nirvana...




































Kashmir...

Young, passionate, very worm... What comes after warm? Rationality, logic, sadness, loneliness? Is it warm, or is it just solitude? I can deal with solitude..., can I deal with warm? I keep calling... Fuck, I just realized it... I do keep on calling!!

The fact is, when I do not call, I get a visit...the warm one...

End of the year, tomorrow...but...it's just something modern man crated, because a modern man depends on limits, borders, frames... and...honestly...it's just a date...the next day will be just another day...the sun will rise, to be seen or hidden behind clouds...doesn't matter...maybe just an excuse..., to surrounded with warmth!

Ok...hopefully, everybody's gonna be worm next year, my wish to the rest of the world...

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

no blog

this is how it goes...

pure nirvana...

sound something like this...
here 45.51704,13.70048

no blog

being alone may be a problem, if the time is telling, that we should share, be shared, love, be loved, give, be given to...not many people think that this is in fact just another day...or...that sharing makes you feel good whenever you decide to do it...

so...share...pictures, knowledge, stuff, whatever, whenever..., at least, you can make someone smile, and a smile can give a lot...life too...

it's so simple...so damn simple...

here is some beautiful music...and some sweet and funny pics...

here's the pianodoc82...from youtube with his amazing 'madly' mix of The Beatles songs


aaaa...and Jon Schmidt...with his original 'All Of Me'
Sulic and Hauser and the Two Cellos

and last but not least...Joshua Bell and 'Summer' made 'presto' Vivaldi's best music under the fingers of one of the greatest musicians of modern times...this guy only makes life worth living...believe me...!




Tuesday, December 20, 2011

no blog

well...discovering some really really good looking bodies in there... :)

There...not here.. :)








Monday, December 5, 2011

no blog

my future home...





































:) or this one, haven't decided yet...























anyway... I did some true photos lately...







been thinking about Andrej lately

hm...